“everything i wanted” sees Billie recalling a nightmare she experienced where she committed suicide and saw all her friends and fans turn their backs on her. The lyrics showcase Billie’s strong relationship with her brother FINNEAS, as he’s the one she goes to for support when dealing with these types of problems.

The song is Billie Eilish’s first single released after her debut album, WHEN WE ALL FALL ASLEEP, WHERE DO WE GO?. The song was announced on November 11, 2019 via Twitter and Instagram stories. It had also been previously teased via Twitter on November 5th, 2019. On November 12, 2019, one day before its release, Eilish teased a 12-second snippet of the track via Instagram. A year before the track’s release, an eight second instrumental clip of “everything i wanted” could be heard in the background of one of Eilish’s Instagram stories.

Billie Eilish’s song ‘Everything I Wanted’ encapsulates the theme of the dichotomy between dream fulfillment and internal struggle, reflecting on the complexities of achieving one’s desires juxtaposed with feelings of isolation, the pressure of expectations, and the profound need for genuine understanding and self-acceptance.