“21 years old. I feel like I’ve wasted the past 4-5 years of my life & there’s always this feeling that everything I have now will soon be gone. I’ve been making music for the past 5 years, and I still don’t know at times if this is what I want to do. I feel like I’ll just be forgotten in the next few years. people and friends I have now will soon just forget about me. I feel like I can’t even form good connections with people because I’m in my head too much. somedays I just wake up and the day is already over. I feel trapped in life, and don’t know what to do. somedays I just want to end it all but tell myself things will get better. I just don’t want to live a life of misery. I can’t really open up to people about how I honestly feel a lot of the time cause I think I’ll just end up being a type of burden to them. so I’m just expressing stuff here. I hope I can find a purpose in life or just something that brings me long term happiness + fulfillment. I don’t want to kill myself or live an a autonomous, autopilot, dead life.” – JOHNNASCUS