On October 21, 2022 Eddie Clutch finally released his well awaited track Blaming Myself (feat. tylfuego) after months of teasing the track on social media.
The song to the surprise of many ended up being a song that would be much deeper than what they expected the song to be.
The song is obviously not one of the average songs that Clutch has released. He opens up about his mental health struggles and the period of his life that dealt with depression due to dealing with loss and addiction.
He stated before that writing this song has helped him come to terms with the struggles in his life and wants his story to help his fans and other people who are dealing with the same struggles he has dealt with.
Clutch features fellow New Jersey artist and friend tylfuego in the first half of the song. His catchy hook and creative melody catches the attention of many.
He speaks about having a lavish lifestyle by driving fancy cars and being with people.
He also speaks about doing drugs throughout his part of the song.
As he speaks about taking those drugs however, we learn that he is taking those drugs to cope with the pain and struggles he is dealing with in his life.
He talks about him conflicting with a breakup. He wishes and pleads that the relationship isn’t over which leads to his denial and is one of the driving factors that leads him to taking drugs to deal with life.
Although he is doing these things to himself which is affecting the ones he loves around him, he takes responsibility for those actions as he is Blaming Himself for them as he is going insane for the person he has broken up with.
Not only does he show that he is taking responsibility for everything, he also states that he is trying to change and better himself for that person to truly show how much he loves and cares about them.
As the hype builds up throughout the song we finally hear Eddie Clutch. He talks about how he has adjusted to this newfound lifestyle of fame and the dark side that comes with it.
He talks about trying to go back to his old way of living because he misses how life once was, not only in an adjustment to fame way but also in a happiness way.
He talks about how he has now become miserable as of late and as he thinks about how happy he was in the past he tries to cherish every moment of rare happiness he gets.
He then appears to be speaking to someone he once dated as he talks about how their relationship failed and realizes that he truly played a part in the toxicity and downfall of the relationship. This was due to Clutch being unprepared for his newfound fame and dealing with these struggles in an unhealthy manner.
As he reflects and dissects his emotional thoughts more he starts to think about how he put himself into the position he is in now. He realizes that it is due to him being young and immature. But he also understands that it is not too late to find that happiness in his life again.
He talks about the things he is doing to improve his life. One of these being restoring the things that made him happy such as his old rap group “#ClutchTimeProductions” and establishing himself as a powerful force in the rap industry.
He then finally comes to terms with his loss and addiction which then opens up a whole new vision for him.
The song takes a dark turn however as he starts his fast rapping section which has him Blaming Himself for many things, he first talks about how he isn’t what he once was because of his mental health struggles, which causes him to have an anxiety filled life. He also states that he is scared to get help because he fears of not feeling perfect.
He then Blames Himself for not handling his demons the right way which led to him being in this position and relates his story to the story of Anakin Skywalker which shows staggering similarities to each other.
He then closes out the song by saying that even though he feels like there is hope and a light at the end of the tunnel, it just leads him down another dark path and no matter how much there are signs of improvement and a happy ending there will never be one and he will always end up being in this dark place which ultimately leads him to his death.
The song has received high praise from its listeners, gaining popularity across the world since its release. It has been a huge impact on both Eddie Clutch’s and tylfuego’s young music career with the song getting recognized by notable artist’s personal radio stations such as Drake and Eminem, has a deal with the NBA and has helped the two artists gain respect and notoriety in the rap industry.