Lost in Love and Crossfaded: My Complicated Journey of Longing and Toxicity" is a song about my complicated love affair with someone who I just can’t seem to let go of, no matter how toxic it gets. I see them and I immediately need to get a little crossfaded to calm my nerves.

As the song goes on, I admit that my love interest can be toxic and that we’ve been through a lot together. Despite this, I still love them deeply. I’m torn between wanting to be with them forever and knowing that our journey may end.

I dream of travelling to new places with them, experiencing different cultures, and being free from the constraints of our current situation. But I also know that I may be holding myself back by staying in this relationship.

The song ends with me pleading for them to call me back, even though I know it may not be the healthiest choice for me. “Lost in Love and Crossfaded” is my way of expressing the complicated emotions I feel towards this person, and the struggle I face as I try to navigate our relationship.